FaDiNgAwAy

Schooling

2007-03-23T20:21:00.000+08:00

23th March

1 Week Since I Post
Many Things Have Change
Or Should I Say
I Changed

I Don't Know Whats Happening
Changing Deep Within Me
I Feel Extremely Weird
Shining Light That Is Limited

Its "IT" Thats
Is Causing All This
Love.

Confused With Myself
Is This Deja Vu
Everything Is Repeating

I Stare Into U
But I Feel The Presence
And The Absent

It Aint Like Before
Whats Done Is Done
I Cant Go Back In Time
To Erase That Fact
But To Create Something New
Let Him Decide
Shivers Going Down My Spine
I Want To Say It Again
But Inside It Hurts
My Mouth Opens
But Only Air Enters
My Heart Slows Down
Preparing To Drop
But I Am Guided By A Light That Makes Me Stand
And Not To Fall Down
Like The Last Time
The Words
It Affected Me So Deep
I Would Cry
Sigh
Why Is This Happening When It Was Gone....

Going For Retreat

2007-03-16T09:05:00.001+08:00

16th March

Today Lynn's Birthday
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LYNN
Sian Later goin clementi meet her
Den After tat go home pack bag
Den I Going For Retreat
Wont Be Back Till Sunday
Actually These whole week i pratically
Slack Nothin much so bored
Aiya
Nvm Later got barberque
^^
Bye Blog

Why Is It That U Must
Make Things Worse
Why Life Is Horrible
But Why This

Nothi Much

2007-03-13T23:12:00.000+08:00

Date ???

Sian Nothin to write Abt
Holiday So sian
I Realli Nth To Do
RO strikes back
woot back at ro again
NLRO player
I COme Pawn U Guys
Muahaha
^_^
Sian Virus COntamination
Nid Efficient Treatment
Terminate
Terminateeeee

Thinking BLANK

2007-03-12T13:16:00.000+08:00

12th March

Sian Nothin To Do
On Saturday sleep whole day
At Night Go Wif 3Prawns to Westmall
go Buy Stuff
Den on Sunday
Realised i onli guy going for retreat
SK help lar
Den go Matts house swim
Den Play Dota Wif his fren christopher and him
Woah every match we lose sia
Trying Out A Lot Of New Characters
Dota quite fun.
Better den maple to be precise
Sian Nothin to do
C Lar U Must Ruin MY DAY
SETH U!
Holy Jai Bless Me

Maths Trial And Its Back

2007-03-09T21:33:00.000+08:00

9th March

Yay For The First Time Come School Go
2/3 nothin to do
Sad Mrs Zane Tye Going For A year or so
Stupid Bio Lesson
Ms Wong Anyhow Scold Me
Say Wat 1 Look Noe I Never Do Correction
Ask her go eat ****
Ms Lai do some explanation for the trial
Den Give Homework Nothin Much
Zane Tye Talk about her goig off
Recess
Home Econ
Write notes do work
Den IPW
Kenneth Whole day argueing wif DAS =_=
Den After Sch Play UNO
Woah Enter hall lik entering examination room
Den Going out sui
I Saw Patric StaarFish Neopets
Sian tis Maths Trial
On The way to airport had a bad feeling
I Want Cry...
Roxan our guide help us here n there
But whole thing ruined by You Hong.
Sad Lar
Den After That You chiong so much
Den The lionel in the end dun go clementi
Woah eat in mcdonald wif Xian wen
Den Go home woah Xian Wen And Lynn Having CAT Fight!!
So nice show shld hav recorded it
Holy Jai Blessed Us Lol ^_^
Darn It Its U

Power Authority Dignity

2007-03-08T20:19:00.000+08:00

8th March

Sian Kenneth Back..
U Noe I Realised It is much more peaceful
Without any quarrels for past 2 days
Not Den I Dun Like Him
We Both Argue too much
Sian Ms Tan Lian Lian
Why take leave
leave us wif horrible teacher
Sian PPR results lik ****
All my marks fail or border line passes
Except for maths

Sia lar cant find my bio notebook
Die lar tmr ms wong wan check
... Swt
This Few days not feeling so good
And So sui
Sigh
After School art club woah so fun
Like Talk whole day
bertbert come art room
come find erh hemm
^^
Woah lucky Gilbert Dunno my blog
=p
Den Go Teacher resourse room
Air con over ther talk cut and play snap wif the pictures
After Art club play wif lionel snap
Den go home
Sia lar die le mother not back yet
Come Back i Die PPR
All The best For Me^^

Sick

2007-03-06T19:56:00.000+08:00

6th February

Sian Sick still come school
From Now on i 7.35pm den i go back class
Reach School Early but i dun wan go class
Todae memorise the bio test the explanation thingy
Dint Realise it was so easy
Den i so worried
Stupid kenneth go give me wrong words to study
for Chinese ding xie
hope i pass hope i pass^^
Woah Sian boring after school
SUI Stupid 2/3 boys tat curse me
In de end realli zong
Ganna Ramp In The Face ... rebound frm a lampost
The Shawn frm sec 4 or 5 ramp the ball
hit lampost hit my face
den bleed ....
Shen Yang , Steven
How they related u go find out
Must be angry cause erh hemm
Den my friend help me wif a bit of art
Chionging
Woah Sian WHo anyhow write on the tagboard
i dun think is dominique?!?
Steven and Shen Yang Tmr Comfirm bash me up
Cause i erh hemm.....

Heaven By Your Side

2007-03-03T20:40:00.000+08:00

3rd March

Check your love compatibility, just click here

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The Truth Has Spoken
The Judgement Is Made
For Every Thing We Want
There Will Be A Need Of A Great Sacrifice

I Took The Opprotunity
Knowing The Chance Of Survival
And The AMount of Risk
That I HAve TO Take

It Passed The Chance
Willin To Sacrifice Love
I GAve It Up For Friendship
An Important Thing That U Nid To Hav To Live Through Life

The Song For This Month

If U Wan THis Song Tag On My Blog Tell Me Who u r or ask from me on msn or friendster

A1Here We Come (1999)
Heaven By Your Side
Words And Music - Ben Adams, Paul Marazzi, Mark Read
Christian: You And I, Cannot Hide
The Love We Feel Indside,
The Words We Need To Say.

Mark: I Feel That I
Have Always Walked Alone.
But Now That You're Here With Me,
There'll Always Be A Place That I Can Go.

Paul: Suddenly Our Destiny
Has Started To Unfold.

Ben: When You're Next To Me
I Can See The Greatest Story Love Has Ever Told

.All: Now My Life Is Blessed
With The Love Of An Angel.

Ben: How Can It Be True?

All: Somebody To Keep The Dream Alive.

Ben: The Dream I Found In You.

All: I Always Thought That Love Would Be The Strangest Thing To Me

Ben: But When We Touch,
I Realise That I Found My Place In Heaven By Your Side.

Paul: I Could Fly, When You Smile. I'd Walk A Thousand Miles To Hear You Call My Name.

Ben: Now That I Have Finally Found The One Who Will Be There For Me
Eternally
My Everlasting Sun.

Mark: Suddenly Our Destiny Has Started To Unfold.

Christian: When You're Next To Me I Can See The Greatest Story Love Has Ever Told.

All: Now My Life Is Blessed With The Love Of An Angel.

Ben: How Can It Be True?

All: Somebody To Keep The Dream Alive.

Ben: The Dream I Found In You.

All: I Always Thought That Love Would Be The Strangest Thing To Me.

Ben: But When We Touch, I Realise That I Found My Place In Heaven By Your Side.
That I Found My Place In Heaven By Your Side

All: Heaven By Your Side, Heaven By Your Side, Heaven By Your Side.

Ben: When Your Next To Me,
I Can See The Greatest Story Love Has Ever Told.

All: Now My Life Is Blessed With The Love Of An Angel.

Ben: How Can It Be True?

All: Somebody To Keep The Dream Alive.

Ben: The Dream I Found In You.

All: I Always Thought That Love Would Be The Strangest Thing To Me.

Ben: But When We Touch, I Realise That I Found My Place In Heaven By Your Side.

All: Now My Life Is Blessed With The Love Of An Angel Somebody To Keep The Dream Alive.
I Always Thought That Love Would Be The Strangest Thing To Me.

Ben: But When We Touch,
I Realise That I Found My Place In Heaven By Your Side.

Cross Country (3.5 km only)....

2007-03-02T22:52:00.000+08:00

2th March
Todae cross country so annoyin
Jog Ran walk Jog Walk Jog Run .....
In The End I Think I Got 75th so jian
after the run i take bus wif tricia lynn and erh dunno name oh well
176 all the way till we reach near bukit batok mrt

Eh Dun Take me photo

den we drop so sui i saw some1 lar
seperate from dunno den me lynn tricia go eat pasta mania
After tat walk around the west mall
Den we went to mcdonald do some funny stuff wif the finger stick
den decide where to go
In The end go tricia de jia
At first say wan swim
den a bit tired so rest
Sui 30mins later rain....
cannot swim den play wif tricia younger bro x box
sian dunno wat he sayin play wif him demm chan
Den tricia start editin photos
Den the Ah Sheng Come home so sad
Damm irritatin
Denn time to go lynn wan to go ok lor
Wah so evil Ah Sheng Go Hide my shoes
And den ramp the ball at me
Noob Lar i standin so close he miss....-_-''
Den found my shoe wif the plants poor plants
Den we go mos burger at west mall eat
Stupid Tricia dun wan take the steven pin wif her
aiya lik tat also scared
den ask me every day go their clss ...
Swt
Sat 61 wif lynn back home
sian lar
jus tried a new game on tis web

http://www.comclub.org/lj/fsquiz.php

make sure u tell me ur quiz results gd luck

Final Judgement

2007-03-01T19:03:00.000+08:00

Its Time To Stop
We Must Clear This
I Cant Stand Everyday Like This
Its Unbearable

I Have To Change
But To What
I Often Ask Myself
How Would It Be Like On The Other Side

Is Changing To Him Good
Or Just The Up Bringing Of A Disaster
I Am Hopeless
There Is The Only Choice

To Change For The Worse
Or To Change For The Better
Looking Outside My Mind Is Empty
Except For Sad Songs

Which I Often Sing To Myself
The Past Is Repeating
Time To Leave The Childhood
And To Step Into The Higher Step Of Life

I Dont Think I Am Me
I Have Not Been Myself
Not Myself But Somebody I Do Not Know
A Person Controlling Me?

If Someone Was to Say I Am Weird
Tats Ok
But If I Think I Am Weird
Theres A Problem

Miss Lai Once Told Me Something
So I Had To CHange
But If I Change I Would Not Know The Outcome
But God Has The Plan For Me.

I Will Change
I Must ...

The Feeling

2007-02-27T19:38:00.000+08:00

27 February

Its Been A While
I Havent Been Doing Any Good
I Easily Lose Concentration
What Is Gonna Happen When My Class Moves
Many Questions Sounds In My Head
But Are The Questions Answerable
Many Decisions To Make
Mostly Hard To Make
Even A Slight Decision
Affects Everything
How Am I Gonna Say It
When
Where
What Can I Do While Avoiding You
Will We Be Friends Or Will We Remain Like This
Is This Decision Mine To Make
Thinking About What will Happen Hurts Me
But I Must Step Forward
But When?

444

2007-02-24T22:08:00.000+08:00

25 February

Wasted the whole darn day on nothin
Went to Kenneth house for nothin
Say dun go there will play 1 dun believe
In the end all we did was play

Xian Wen N Me went to travel here n there
To get to beautyworld and back
To kenneth house jus to find out
He Went Out.

Xian Wen Come My house nothin we can do wifout paint
So play lor
den watch naruto
den eat dinner
den disturbed by some 1
den he go home .
Now talkin to fren abt somethin
Todae ssux.

Pratically everyday sux.

The Truth

2007-02-23T22:55:00.000+08:00

I Think I Found The Truth
But It Just Hit Me In The Heart
I Feels Pain
Like Getting Cane
Now That I Noe It
I Lose It
I Will Ask
If You Disagree
Would You Be My Friend

school sux
zhen liang got back to lynn (good not bgr)
i had advisors
feels lik i am not trustin myself
play yugioh
i feel like it really sux
wat can i do to change the way
the way to truth or the way of life
is my mission to fullfill my goals in life
or to be in darkness by the failliures through life
do not get over taken by darkness
for then u will regret everything.

At A Total Lost

2007-02-22T19:39:00.000+08:00

22rd February

The decision is hard to make.
But it must be made
The choice is mine to take
But the will is for you will shake.

Sooner or later it will drop
Where corpse would be like crops.
To find out one was betrayed by trust
Feels a million swords piercing through us.

Lost i am at sake
Shall you come and overtake
Its not for me to decide
For by that time i would be flying kites.

Death at door thats how i feel
About things that you done that kill.
It hurts for one to know
That love not there even tomorrow.

Love for you is fading away.
So will I as I fade away
Into the dark the place I stand
Would be covered with a horrible stench.

Sorry But I Shouldnt Have Done This
Would You Ever Forgive Me
If Its To Hard To Forfill That Would Be Fine
I Would Wait For You Till The End Of Time.

Sadness

2007-02-21T16:30:00.000+08:00

21st February

The Sadness Overwhelms Me
I Am Miserable
Everything Links To Me
The Pain Hurts Every Part Of Me

I Found Out That A Friend Betrayed Me
Dint Think He Would Be Like This .
I Always Ask Myself
Why Is Love So Complicated

My Love Is Weaken
I Fell Into Deep Darkness
Looking At U Makes Me Feel Like An Idiot
Dying Happens To Be Must 2nd Option

Should I Take Is Up To Fate
Love Will Take Me Apart
Hopes Are Lost
Never To Be Found

I Am Missing
I Am No Longer Myself
I Am Gone.

2 days Be4 CNY

2007-02-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

16 February

Not really a nice day
Mornin Got Scolded by Parents
Den Reach Sch 7 pm
Had To Suffer 3 periods waste of time
Susan Wong Write On The Board
Turn Around Start Scoldin
Write On The Board
Turn Around Scold
Sian
Den Ms Lai No Come
Ms Tay or somethin
had to tak over
Dun Understand wat she was talkin
Den CME LEsson
Zane Thye Busy wif dancers
Nobody take over our class
Den 2 person Fight
Dey stop le den all mae so much noise
Suddendly Mr Ho Walk in
Woah
Scary over there i must w8 4 recess
Recess Play Soccer
Den No Eat
After Recess 1 period of Home Econ
Talk to ms Rabia ^^
Den Gwee Boy Brin me lionel Jh
go help teaacher
nvr tell us
At least got new fren who reads ur palm
Woah
Noe A Lot Of my Future but I Wont Say
Den Go Henry Park Lik happiest day of my life
Cause I Hate Secondary
So Comin BAck WAs Lik A miracle wif alot of frens
Sigh So fun
After Tat Heavy Rain
Den Sch Wan Close
So Bad
Lucky Brought umbrella(heheh Smart hor)
But Nvr use let girls use
Den At Jelita I had to help girls get umbrella
Go Matt House tak
Brin Them Back le Den
i go matt house
for 1 hr
den go Sarah house
Over There Lik Cat Fight Between Charis and Sarah
Sian Den About to play truth or dare Sing Shi Must go den everyone Go
(saved By The Bell)
Den Go Home Lor
Now typin Lor
Brother dun wan come guo nian lor
Wat to do Lor
Dun speak singlish Lor
....
-_-"
Hope 2mr better day

Another Day

2007-02-15T19:53:00.001+08:00

15 February

Another day
I was So sick
Buut I Still Wanted to talk to u
My Love For U
I Had To Resist The Illness
So I Can Look At U
Stare At U
Forever
But Every minute
It gets Stronger
And Every Second
I Get Weaker
U R The Onli Hope
Love Me.

Valentine Day.

2007-02-14T16:33:00.002+08:00

14 February.

Guess I Should Be Happy On This Day
But All I Could Think Of Is The Suffering
I Placed On U
I Must Not Regret Wat I Had Done
If I Was Not To Say It
I Wouldnt Noe If U Would Love Me
I Lost My Heart For U
So Forgive Me.

Woke Up At 5am tis mornin
Was Sick But Had To Recover
SMSed Syafiq
Syafiq Said He Had No VAlentine
I Said me Too
Den At 5.30 i decided to make
A Valentine Card
Took Me Quite A Long Time
Was Even Doing It in School
Decided To Write Some Nice Words
Thought Of Helping Syafiq Give Someone****
But I Wrot Ur NAME
Eric Placed It Under The Table While U Would In Class But Not At Ur Seat
I Was Shocked
Den He Asked me If I Liked Someone****(Anther Person)
I Didnt HAve Anythin To Say
We Hadnt talk Since The First Week Of School
I Helped U Pick Up The Books
And The Other Way we contact was msn.
I Wrote U the Poem
Guess U Shld Noe
Love Is Unbearable
Had No Present For U Except My Homemade CArd
I Wish We Could Be Together
But Watever Is Best For U
Is Ur decision Not Mine
I Will Wait
And Wait
Till U Go JC
Till U Go University
Till U Go Oversea Study
Till U Get A Degree
Till U Get Married
till The End Of My Life
I Will Still Rmb Loving U

The Day B4 love

2007-02-13T20:52:00.000+08:00

13 February 2007

Another day has past.
2Dae I received My Chinese test Paper
I was already sick and wen i saw my results
I wanted to cry
I got Onli 15/50 = 30/ 100
After studying for long hours at night b4
And Waking Up at 4am in the mornin jus to study,
I felt really irritated as i nvr get good results even though i studied so much

I went out wif Yew Hong , Shen Liang and gang.
Went to Sumo House to eat for the first time.
Cheap and exp at the same time
Den Go Tiong Buy present
Skip dis part if not ruin everyones suprise for tmr

Song Or Poem,
Everyday I Will Think Of U
Of The Time We HAd
The Love For U Will Nvr End
CAuse I Love U

If I Love U
Will U Be Mad At Me
I Would W8 4 ur door
To Open For Me To Come In.

My Love For U Will Remain Strong
The Time We Had Was Nvr Wron
But My Memories Are Fading Away
So I Will Step Up To U And Say

If I Love U
Will U Be Mad At Me
I Would W8 4 ur door
To open for me to come in.

Life Of A Souless Man

2007-02-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

10 February

For me love was the most important thin on earth
But the Question is was it ??
Some PPl says money is the best thing u can ever have
But love is actually the best
Can Money Buy Love???
It sure can buy a lot of stuffs to gain the love.
A noble hero once
told his love his feelings
Ppl thought the girl will love him
But As She Was A Loyal Lover she dint give up on her Boyfriend
Some Love Can be found everywhere
OThers In the dictionary...
Girls do u understand them
Boys Are they jus geeks
Girls are ok who can be a good point and bad point at times
Boys are not geeky , Geek is a word tat shouldnt exist as no boys are geek
Everyone hav a special Character or personality or background

I happen to be the useless type where all i hav to depend on is pure dumb luck
Love is a miracle to ppl
An enjoyable moment in life
There mayy be hardships

I promis My Love Tat i will suffer at every moment of joy .
Victorius We Are
Energy Love
Love For U ReMains Strong

Spent Lifes Of Frens Who Dun Realli Care ...

2007-02-09T19:34:00.000+08:00

9 February

Got To School Early. Today No Test ,
Waited for lessons to start which is in 1hours time
Lonely. So lonely.
I Began to drift apart from my self losin everythin.
All I could think of was selfish Love
Love So Hard Decision
Every decision Will Cause Ones Fate
Everythin Points to Love
Kenneth Changed seats wif Syafiq
Now sittin wif me
But i dun wan him here
All i wan to be is to be alone
Wif No1 to disturb me
Wif Onli her to save me
But It Was A Hopeless thought which had no chance of happenin
Life was gettin worse
Every Second I Breathe
I had developed my feelings for u
I cant change it
Its Jus it
I cant do anythin
Alll i can do is pray for the better
Love was so harsh
All i wanted to do was to listen to some love songs and idle the whole way till hav feelings for me
The Impossible thought.

Loveless sight
Loveless voice
Loveless Taste
Loveless Me

I nid u .......
Shld i confess???
Tell me shld i
Will Hav A Happy Endin!!!
Or a sad story tat jus began....
If i said I Love U
Pls forgive me....
love u

Victory will It Be mine
Eating a favorite pastime
Love U so much Do care for me..

Tests Sian

2007-02-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

8 February

Stupid test made me study whole day.... Wake up 4 am still not enough
In The End So Many Things cannot remember
Sigh comfirm Fail 1 lar.........
History nvr study at all.
Had to use back brain power ~~~~
Sian ...
Lucky Mr Ho never scold me for bein late for art club nid do summary for Ms Lai (Chio Bu accordin to Fu Wei)LOL

VAlentine Day comin le
No valentine
no present
no nothin
sad
='(
NID VALENTINE NID GIRL ARHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

OOOO poem i created todae
Jus now *name* was starin at u
Tryin to tell u tat she loves u

She wants u back
But u dun wan her

Wat have u done to make her come back

Do u wan her back or
Do u wan her * _____* (fill in the blank wif watever u wan)

PS. Made for kkenneth n Joanne actualli
LOL

Siao!!!

Love is lost
But for u its not
i dun hav u
U hav him
i love u
U hate Me
Y must love be so complicated will u be the 1 tat is suitable for me
I gave up my long Love for u truely

Lone Heart

2007-02-06T17:21:00.000+08:00

6 February 2007

Love Was Thought To Be A Fantasy In Me
But It Was Changed Forever By A Black Heart

In Every Love The Black Heart Will Always take over
But In Every Love That is concealed by the Black Heart.

There will always be a Hidden Light that comes through a hole
The Problem Is Will That Hole Be Found And Will It Be Big Enough To Overcome it

Our Heart Is Like An Armor That Is Over Protective
Preventing Anyone from noeing about us.

But 1 Day there will be an armor piercing arrow that will pierce through the armor.
Allowin Urself to be exposed.

Ur Truth
Ur Life
Everythin Tat u treasure

And If The Lone Heart was to take over ...
All would be lost
Especially
ur
True
Love........

Dun make the same mistake i made n turn into a lone heart
where all will be over....

Love And Depression

2007-02-05T19:54:00.000+08:00

5th February

Love to me was jus a dream. But it was real. Everything that happened to me.
But Love seem to be hard where all of us have something for another and if u
r lucky the person u lik will lik u too. The time i spent .Everything tat happen
Everytime i'm near u i sense uncomfort within u and u turn me depressed

Sorry For Wat I Hav Done Will U forgive me. Wat must i do.

................(FRM E2/2)

Pls i hope things willl change

1st Post

2007-02-03T21:43:00.000+08:00

3rd February 2007

Todae went to bluetooth women bio course den borin . met new guy called kelvin ^^. Early mornin play soccer , woah dat germain demm sian 1 made me run here run there .Wah lao.
After The BIO course .Go SP eat KFC wif RAymond Kun Kit Eric n Jian Wei. OVer there play taiti^^ untill 1.40+ pm den all go. Me n eric at bustop wait for 196 sian. Steven came den we talk a while bus come. Den Steven Say left wallet in sch so he went back to sch... den me n eric had to w8 4 him let the bus go. Sian after tat i folo eric go his blk den i walk off. I walk for 1 hr 20 mins dunno anyhow walk cause i demm sian dun wan go hme. Now if

Song.

Hey Girl
Do u still love me now
I have lost myself
To the pain inside

Babygirl
R u the 1 for me now
Cause if its Love i seek
The pain will grow inside of me.eee..............

Love the person tat had cherished u most
Love the person tat u think is for u
Love the ppl tat u noe tat loves u
Love the person loves u too.

Cause the pain will rise
Into ur life
And all u have is gone.....

So u must lift urself rite into the light
As it waits for u
The Love of ur life

Will U Love Me too
If I said tat i Love u
Will u love me too...
If i said tat
I
Love
Uuuuuuuuuu

*FaDiNgAwAy*